♪I'm standing at the crossroads, in life, and I don't know where to go.♪ (Pirates of the Mississippi)
I'm part of a Krewe, a krewe of Pirate girls. I like being a pirate girl, and not just because it gives me an excuse to wear a corset. I like being a pirate girl because it's fun, rewarding, and I get to spend time with some fabulous women. But, as all things must change with time, the krewe has changed, and, so have I.
I joined the krewe to be a part of something, to give back to community, and to have a damn good time doing it. I have made some amazing friends in this krewe, and I have recently brought in one of my dearest friends to be a part of this great organization. Yet, I feel torn. ♪Nothing's fine, I'm torn♪ (Natalie Imbruglia)
Something is very different. There is a snake within our group; a cancer that is spreading evil vindictiveness, and doing so with a smile. Politics have snuck into our sisterhood, and it threatens to destroy us all! Well, okay, maybe that's a little dramatic, but things are very different.
I'm torn between fighting for things to be right, or just walking away. The idealist in me wants to stand and fight, to tear down the red tape, and make things as good as they were and as great as they can be, but the realist in me questions if it's worth the stress of the battle.
Our primary focus used to be on the good of the community; on making plans to give back. Now, we make plans that lie in self gratification and merely tag along on others charitable events. We are better than that! We are Pirate Girls! Pirate Girls exist to see the smile on a child's face to see the twinkle in a gentleman's eye. We are a group that women long to be a part of because of the way we carry our selves, because of the fun we have, and because of the good we do! Not, because of the size of our float, or the style of our beads. We have lost focus!
I have only one choice. I must stand and fight for what I believe in. As any good pirate would do, I will wage a war against bureaucracy! I will slice through the red tape with the tip of my sabre', because it is the right thing to do!
As with any war for change, people will be hurt, friendships will be wounded, and failure is a big possibility. And, in the end, I could still walk away, but at least I won't have to walk away wondering "what if?"
♪You've got to stand for something, or you'll fall for anything♪ (Aaron Tippen)