Pour Your Heart Out: I'm Different

Today, I'm taking a break from Wordless Wednesday to pour my heart out. (plus I haven't taken any new pictures in a while. Bear, says it's because I'm afraid of losing my camera again, so I don't take it anywhere, and, well, he may be right.) Pour Your Heart out is for when you need to just get something out there, and with some recent events, it's exactly what I needed to do.
 I'm different! I get it. I know. I'm hard to get along with. I'm hard to get to know. I'm strong in my opinions, and I am sure to let you know. I can't always hide my feelings, and I often think outside the box. I push you to the limit to help you see my way, but I sit and listen carefully to every word you say.

I wear my tattoos with pride.  I put them where they are, for all the world to see.  I stand, up, against anyone, that says it's not how a professional should be. I wear glitter on my eyes, and blue jeans on my thighs, and you won't see me praying, while looking  to the skies. I'm different!

But, through my strength and knowledge, through the colors of my art, inside I hide the weakness, that I sometimes, care to much. I pretend that I don't feel, the sharpness, of your words. I stand behind my wall of confidence, protecting the inside me. And, none of this, no none of this, none of this do you see.

I think it would be easier, if only I'd conform. Conform to what you want of me, to what you see as norm. But conformity is not, what makes us all unique. Uniqueness equals beauty, it is that, what makes me; me.

But, sometimes I wish you'd see past that, and see my humanity. For inside, I am feeling, loving, hurting, thinking, and, breathing deep. And that is not so, different, I think.

♪Tell me I'm the only one
Tell me there's no other one...
Despite all my rage, I am still just a rat in a cage♪
(Smashing Pumpkins)


♪Every day is so wonderful
and suddenly, it's hard to breath
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed♪
(Christina Aguilera)

♪But my dreams
they aren't as empty
as my conscience seems to be♪
(The Who)