Pour Your Heart Out: I'm Different

Today, I'm taking a break from Wordless Wednesday to pour my heart out. (plus I haven't taken any new pictures in a while. Bear, says it's because I'm afraid of losing my camera again, so I don't take it anywhere, and, well, he may be right.) Pour Your Heart out is for when you need to just get something out there, and with some recent events, it's exactly what I needed to do.
 I'm different! I get it. I know. I'm hard to get along with. I'm hard to get to know. I'm strong in my opinions, and I am sure to let you know. I can't always hide my feelings, and I often think outside the box. I push you to the limit to help you see my way, but I sit and listen carefully to every word you say.

I wear my tattoos with pride.  I put them where they are, for all the world to see.  I stand, up, against anyone, that says it's not how a professional should be. I wear glitter on my eyes, and blue jeans on my thighs, and you won't see me praying, while looking  to the skies. I'm different!

But, through my strength and knowledge, through the colors of my art, inside I hide the weakness, that I sometimes, care to much. I pretend that I don't feel, the sharpness, of your words. I stand behind my wall of confidence, protecting the inside me. And, none of this, no none of this, none of this do you see.

I think it would be easier, if only I'd conform. Conform to what you want of me, to what you see as norm. But conformity is not, what makes us all unique. Uniqueness equals beauty, it is that, what makes me; me.

But, sometimes I wish you'd see past that, and see my humanity. For inside, I am feeling, loving, hurting, thinking, and, breathing deep. And that is not so, different, I think.

♪Tell me I'm the only one

Tell me there's no other one...

Despite all my rage, I am still just a rat in a cage♪

(Smashing Pumpkins)

♪Every day is so wonderful

and suddenly, it's hard to breath

Now and then, I get insecure

From all the pain, I'm so ashamed♪

(Christina Aguilera)

♪But my dreams

they aren't as empty

as my conscience seems to be♪

(The Who)

Post-it Note Tuesday- That's just wrong!

This is the cover of Elle France.

This is Elle U.S.

♪See these hips, big hips, don't cha?♪ (Missy Elliot)

♪Give me that Becky♪

♪I love Becky, yes I do♪ (Plies)

Oh, boy, Another Survey

Seems like everywhere you go these days, someone wants you to do a survey. And, some of them are even willing to compensate you for completing it. "complete this survey, and we'll give you a free appetizer." or "complete the survey, and you'll be entered to win."  With all these surveys, is anyone, really listening? ♪I wanna know what you're thinking♪

Look at Walmart, everytime I shop, it asks me if my cashier greeted me. Hmm... does a scowling look and a grunting sound count as a greeting?! I'm not sure. Is that up to Walmart standards?! ♪there are some things you can't hide♪

And, on the occasion that I get more than hmmph from my cashier, they are totally incompetent! So, what difference does it make that they greeted me, when it took 30 minutes to figure out how to check out 10 items with only 2 coupons?! By that point, I could care less that they said hello when all I want to do is put up my hand, walk away, and scream GOODBYE! The surveys DO NOT ask the right questions! ♪I wanna know what you're feeling♪

I work for a major corporation, and, not only are the customers surveyed, but, so are the employees. As a Supervisor, I'm expected to take the results from my employees' surveys and develop an action plan of what I will do to improve things. I'm all for improving the work place, and for self-development. I'm listening to the surveys, but THEY didn't ask the right questions, SO I don't have the right answers!  ♪Tell me what's on your mind♪

And, some people didn't even bother to complete the survey. So, what am I to conclude from them? That they are perfectly content? or are they too miserable to bother? Should I have offered compensation for completion? or did they just not like the questions?  ♪Here I am in silence it's a game I have to play♪

 Hmm...Maybe, I should send out a survey?!


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The Right to Be Wrong

Sharing with you one of my favorite songs by one of my favorite artists, Joss Stone.

This song is a great reminder to us all to take chances, try new things, and don't be afraid of failing, because you have the right to be wrong.

Joss Stone |MTV Music

Friday Fragments & Follow: I just wanna be me

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Did you hear about the woman (Donna Simpson) that wants to be the fattest woman in the world?! She has to eat 12000 calories a day to meet her goal of 1000 lbs by 2012. Her weekly grocery bill is $800, but she pays this with a website where people pay to watch her eat! One freak that wants to be 1000 lbs is bad enough, but a bunch of freaks that pay to watch her eat?! WTH is wrong with people?! Of, course I would gladly make a donation to her cause...I've got some extra fat around my middle that she can have!  ♪Because I'm fat, I'm fat, you know I'm really fat♪ (Weird Al)    

I was looking at this site that searches Emergency rooms for what people were treated for. On the first page of foreign objects, I saw at least 4 cases of children sticking things up their nose. #2 stuck a bead up her nose when she was around 2, and she did it not once but twice! Lucky for me, I knew to push the other nostril, forcing her to blow it out, (in all of it's snottiness,) so we were spared the ER visit. Check out the site for some odd injuries, including vaccums, raccoons, bananas... ♪That Shhh is bananas B A N A N A S♪  (Gwen Stefani)

I just filled out my Census, and I must say, I was disappointed at my options for race. I work hard to get a semi shade of tan, so why can't they have some options?  I have never walked into Sephora and asked for a nice shade of White! How bout golden honey as an option? Or better yet, because of my tattoos: multi-colored?! (I joke, but I really wish we could get to a point where color doesn't matter for anything except, shopping for cosmetics.)

♪I don't wanna be anything other than me♪ (Gavin Degraw)

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